I wonder

I wonder if you know I’ve fell in love with the thin little red lines again since you left. 

I wonder if you know I’ve borrowed the colors from strangers but they were too much and have left flashes of you in my eyes. 

I wonder if you know you made me a better person but now it’s 4am and I’m so close to giving up. 

I wonder if you know I’ve tried so hard to hate you but how can you hate someone who once made you human? 
-I can’t pretend anymore.