Pedantic

They write their depths.

I write my shallows.

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When I say I don’t believe in love

When I say I don’t believe in love, I mean I have performed violence on the stage and most of my best acts started with I love yous and ended with sorrys.

When I say I don’t believe in love, I mean I can’t hear your existence over the war raging in my bones that is usually passed from to father to son. I mean I don’t have the tenderness it takes.

When I say I don’t believe in love, I mean I would rather cut my own toungue with my own teeth and swollow it, skin myself before belonging to someone.

When I say I don’t believe in love, I mean I am not spineless as those who do but never admit.

On death.

I want to write about them but what kind of girl writes about dead? What kind of girl mourns for the people she never met for years? What kind of girl discredits the living, the beauty of nature and glorifies the decaying skin? What kind of girl questions god the holy god your god and believe in death? What kind of girl declares death as her god?